when the time starts wandering
and your thoughts seem incoherent
“you seem lost but you’re here”
energy depleting
you feel the mental exhaustion creeping
“i just want to sleep.. and sleep”
when your heart skips beats but stops
all within moments
your bones seem brittle
“why aren’t you eating?”
when discussions turn to hot coals
and emotions are either too much
or never enough
when you want, but you don’t
you love, but you hate
and hurt becomes an organ
you’re learning to not reject
when you learn to adjust and not to heal
hiding..just keep hiding
from everyone, them, yourself
this is when you let go.
